backstabber ; To attack (someone) unfairly, especially in an underhand, deceitful manner In this case, i wasn't the backstabber but i was being backstabbed. (not in a violent way.. but a more unliteral way) After I got back my results, and through the chinese class. i realised he was the true backstabber. i was too distraught by him. i wanted to turn around and shout at him; i thought you said you didn't know how to do the questions in physics and yet you got so high. i am totally disappointed in him. i mean. i didn't meant to say he is a backstabber just because he study harder. BUT, the fact is that after the exam, he said he didn't know how to do. I accepted. so? in the end. he got so high. at least if he was confident in the first place. I will not be so sad. This did not happen to this exam only. But other tests too..
Today was the fateful day. The day I got back my mid year exam results. The day .. the day..
Firstly, to summarise the grades i have gotten. `distinctions (a1 & a2) - chinese (a1) add maths (a2) `b3 and b4 - combined humanities (b3) `c5 & c6 - english (c6) pure geography (c6) e - maths (c6)
failedgrades `d7 - physics (d7) chemistry (d7)
gosh. i failed both my sciences. biology haven't give out yet. i seriously don't know what to do if my biology also fail. these are the marks..
`english paper 1 - 40/60 paper 2 - 16/50 total - 56/110 ~ 50.9 %
`e maths paper 1 - 33/50 (target was 35) paper 2 - 20/50 total - 53/100
`add maths paper - 37/50 total - 74/100
`physics paper 1 - 12/30 paper 2/section b - 15/40 paper 2/section c - 10/20 total - 37/90 ~ 41 %
`chemistry paper 1 - 13/20 paper 2 - 24.5/60 total - 37.5/80 ~ 47 %
`biology unknown yet for the moment
`combined humanities (literature) i was indeed very happy for my literature results. although it wasnt very good. i got 2nd in class for literature!! :) poem 1 - 17/25 paper 2 - 17/25 total - 34/50
`combined humanities (social studies) paper - 33/50
`combined humanities (social studies + literature) social studies - 33/50 literature - 34/50 total - 67/100
`pure geography paper 1 - 19.5/30 paper 2 - 30.8/70 total - 50.3
currently, these are the tentative results for my mid year. how? i used to be scoring a1s and a2s. wad about now? 2 distinction only and 2 fail subjects. i don't know how i can cope. i couldn't control my tears when i recieved my chemistry paper. but when the other papers come, i've decided to tell myself to be strong. well. i am waiting for thursday. the day that the sacred book will be handed over to my hand. i wonder when i flip through the book, will i cry ?
