"holidays are here!!" but "so what?" from lots of blog that I have read, people joy over the coming of holidays.
if it was last year, I would feel so bored and get so upset because I cannot go to school and talk with my friends and blah, blah, blah.
but this year was absolutely different. i am so desperate for a holiday to come. I can't stand the stress from my CCAs and my academic studies. but one month is still rather long. I think 2 - 3 weeks will be alright.
hais. i am so sad. my drama seniors have stepped down and yesterday was our official last DRAMA session. they are the one who brought drama to its peak. they are the closest batch to me. they are the most fun and funky batch. they bring laughter to drama. i will miss them.
yesterday, i was very unhappy over some matters. well. i shall not talk about it. that freaking person who spoiled my mood. freak.
holidays are here. but they are packed with debate, drama, holiday homework and a few days of extra lessons + projects.
well. 4 weeks. they will pass very soon. hahs. will b!og within the holidays. :)
Thursday, May 25, 2006
today was that fateful day. the day. "BOWEN SECONDARY SCHOOL SECONDARY THREE - MEET THE PARENTS' SESSION" although i was supposedly not get the report slip,i still manage to get it by some underhand means with a few of my friends.
there. the reality. it was printed in black and white. i got 32nd in class (out of 43) and 58th in level (out of a 190?). perhaps. i just guess my class did really well. even i had gotten a 32nd in class, i still managed to get a 58th in the level (in which in other class, perhaps such result would allow you to secure only a 100 + position). wow.
sad? nope. overall. i failed 1 subject and that was PHYSICS. that darn subject. but well. i had to work harder in term 3 and 4. serious. must concentrate already. 1st in our class was kenwick if i am not wrong. hahas. scze we promised me a lunch if she got class position (1 - 29th). hahas. and you can guess that she did.
well. well. as the saying goes, ''don't ponder/worry over "spilt milk " the spilt milk refers to the results. so i shall not ponder over it. seriously.
what i can say now only is just don't ponder, look foward and work harder next term.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
i thought i had did it. i was so confident.
in the end. what happened ? i was so freaking upset when i got back that result.
now. i had flunk it all. i don't know how to face my parents.
all i could do now is to await the report book on thursday. all i could do now is pray hard.
exams just hurt me. exam just simply ****.
Monday, May 22, 2006
backstabber ; To attack (someone) unfairly, especially in an underhand, deceitful manner In this case, i wasn't the backstabber but i was being backstabbed. (not in a violent way.. but a more unliteral way) After I got back my results, and through the chinese class. i realised he was the true backstabber. i was too distraught by him. i wanted to turn around and shout at him; i thought you said you didn't know how to do the questions in physics and yet you got so high. i am totally disappointed in him. i mean. i didn't meant to say he is a backstabber just because he study harder. BUT, the fact is that after the exam, he said he didn't know how to do. I accepted. so? in the end. he got so high. at least if he was confident in the first place. I will not be so sad. This did not happen to this exam only. But other tests too..
Today was the fateful day. The day I got back my mid year exam results. The day .. the day..
Firstly, to summarise the grades i have gotten. `distinctions (a1 & a2) - chinese (a1) add maths (a2) `b3 and b4 - combined humanities (b3) `c5 & c6 - english (c6) pure geography (c6) e - maths (c6)
failedgrades `d7 - physics (d7) chemistry (d7)
gosh. i failed both my sciences. biology haven't give out yet. i seriously don't know what to do if my biology also fail. these are the marks..
`english paper 1 - 40/60 paper 2 - 16/50 total - 56/110 ~ 50.9 %
`e maths paper 1 - 33/50 (target was 35) paper 2 - 20/50 total - 53/100
`add maths paper - 37/50 total - 74/100
`physics paper 1 - 12/30 paper 2/section b - 15/40 paper 2/section c - 10/20 total - 37/90 ~ 41 %
`chemistry paper 1 - 13/20 paper 2 - 24.5/60 total - 37.5/80 ~ 47 %
`biology unknown yet for the moment
`combined humanities (literature) i was indeed very happy for my literature results. although it wasnt very good. i got 2nd in class for literature!! :) poem 1 - 17/25 paper 2 - 17/25 total - 34/50
`combined humanities (social studies) paper - 33/50
`combined humanities (social studies + literature) social studies - 33/50 literature - 34/50 total - 67/100
`pure geography paper 1 - 19.5/30 paper 2 - 30.8/70 total - 50.3
currently, these are the tentative results for my mid year. how? i used to be scoring a1s and a2s. wad about now? 2 distinction only and 2 fail subjects. i don't know how i can cope. i couldn't control my tears when i recieved my chemistry paper. but when the other papers come, i've decided to tell myself to be strong. well. i am waiting for thursday. the day that the sacred book will be handed over to my hand. i wonder when i flip through the book, will i cry ?
Saturday, May 20, 2006
"in life, once an event has passed, we ought to sum it all up." and that is what we call a summary.
the mid year exam is over and here, let me sum it all up.. here are some overall comments for each and every paper...
`english for english, i just hope i can pass. if my english fail, i don't know what to say to myself already.
`e math paper 1 was the hope of everyone. almost everyone thought that e math would be easy because of emath paper 1. but they didn't know the proverb in chinese that goes, "first sweet, then BITTER"
`e math paper 2 was extremely tough. wasn't that easy as compared to e math paper 1. might fail. hope paper 1 can pull me up.
`add maths rather easy. e2 got back their results already. i guess it was a presentable result. hmm.. think can score?
`chemistry hng. this subject arhs. 75 % will fail. still got 25% chance to PASSborderline. would never get a 50 and above/80. if i really get 50 and above, i can only say god is helping me lol.
`biology rather easy. the difficulty is there but it is not one that will traumatise us with fear and whatsnot. although i didn't have time to write more for the last question on malnutrition, it was still ok. might score..
`physics another killer subject. same as chemistry. 75% will fail. still got 25% chance to PASS. would never get like 50 and above/90. very difficult.
`combined humanities (social studies) hmm.. not sure will pass anot. because the marker is Mrs Carmen Tan. she marks with extreme strictness. oh gosh. don't think will do well with her marking
`combined humanities (literature) not that difficult. might pull up my combined humanities (hope so!) think might score.
`core geography oh wad another killing subject. might score in mcq but will fail like don't know what in seq. gosh. the ratio is 7 (seq) : 3 (mcq).. take if i score 30 in seq and 20 in mcq. hey ! i passed :) lols.. that's is just a dream. "i wonder if my dreamwill come true".
`chinese wow. i got 83.5 for my chinese. for chinese, don't have written exam. only have project work. did the project with jie lun, eugene sng and kok chen. wow. first time chinese score A1 and such a high A1 in secondary schools. kempeteh~!
overall, wad i want to say is that although exams are over, the verdict is the one that will terrify us. lols..
next monday & tuesday - get results next thursday - meet the parents' session (not sure if my parents going) next friday - the report book day. (which most of us HATE or some may LIKE!) to end this off, 'will i fail, will i do well, will i pass all subjects" the result will be out soon and as usual, i will b!og about it...
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
seriously.. wad i can only say now for my physics is "hopeless"
some overall comments about today's paper
`physics - very very difficult ... i hate it!! section a [30] : (estimate: 12 marks) section b [40] : (estimate: 15 marks) section c [20] : (estimate : 5 marks) total : 32/90 ... lols? i will die if i get this mark!!
`e-math paper 1 - was rather easy but not sure will make careless mistake anot... average around 35 marks?
hais.. today another paper demoralised me again.. physics. that darn physics.. making me feel so sad over it.. now i am really scared for two subjects no. three... physics.. chemistry. and core geography!
Next paper (and the LAST !!) coming up : Pure Geography Paper 1 and E Math Paper 2
i have more confidence in e math then in pure geography.. hais..
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
CHEMISTRY and BIOLOGY - they are OVER !!
Some overall comments about the paper today..
`chemistry - was very difficult. don't know if i will flunk anot.. section a - 20 marks [estimate 11 marks] section b - 30 marks [estimate 18 marks] section c - 30 marks [estimate 5 marks] total : 34/80 ... hais.. after this paper.. many people was proclaiming that the paper was difficult.. and that they would fail.. well i didnt deny.. but deep inside my heart... i knew that when the result come, they are the ones who will get a's and b's and they are the one who will be happy with the result... what about me? i am left stranded there. looking at my paper and controlling my tears. what can i do? now on to the biology paper..
`biology - it was kinda all right. i knew how to do most questions. i reached home and check my BIOLOGY 10 YEAR SERIES and found out many questions from there. well. well. section a - 20 marks [estimate 12 marks] section b - 40 marks [estimate 25 marks] section c *had three questions.. choose two 1. enzymes and temperature 2. malnutrition - leading to obesity, starvation .. 3. aerobic and anaerobic respiration and adaptations...
the funny thing was... i studied... no.. i memorised the chapter on AEROBICand ANAEROBIC respiration.. yet i didn't attempt that question. well.. onto the estimation.. i chose (1) and (2)..(1) was divided into a. [6] and b. [4].. hmm.. maybe i''ll get 3 and 2 respectively? that makes a 5. and (2) was [10] .. i guess i'll get a 6... total : 48/80 ... all right.. i could only say "expected".
*all my friends out there who are reading my blog. and those who know me since sec 1.. i know i am a bit that kinda "calculative" not in the sense of MONEY but marks.. that's me.. that's eugin. i still remember i and felicia lim (now also in 3e1).. used to sit together and calculate our marks and estimate our "enemies". lols. but now.. i realised something.. people now, when come to sec 3 says, "how many subjects did you pass?" or "pass OR fail? " ... not like sec 2.. "you get how many A1s arhs? " or "you get A1 or A2" ... they change.. people DO change.. hais..
Next Paper coming up... PHYSICS and E MATHS PAPER 1...
`physics? will i fail? will i pass?
Monday, May 15, 2006
"late at night ... at 10.50, nearing to 11pm.. yet i am still not asleep." i never used to be like this.. people used to call me the "early sleeper" or whatsnot. lately.. especially during the exam weeks. i am beginning to have the habit of studying last minute. burning the midnight oil till eleven and then wake up at five in the morning to read through. this is not the old me. this is not the old eugin. i don't know if this is good or bad. lols..
i am studying biology now... hais.. from 7 pm till now. i only manage to go through 1 and half chapters. omg. how am i going to finish this by tommorrow? crap. freak. plus chemistry. haven even study. out of 5 tests ms lee gave. i only passed 1 and it was a 11/20. god. aniways.. gotta work harder in term 3. if not will never going to catch up.. for now. i guess. i just have to put down blogging. put down games and START STUDYING ...
can anybody tell me, "is it too late to start now?" ... perhaps~
NEXT PAPER on WEDNESDAY .. : E Maths Paper 1 and Physics ... :( Physics ? wad is PHYSICS to me? a GIBERISH language ? a foreign LANGAUGE ?
add maths and literature (ch) done... some overall comments about the paper..
`add maths - quite average. knew how to do most questions. only 3 - 4 questions don't know how to do.
`literature (ch) - not that confident. wrote 7 pages. (4 pieces of paper) .. wrote CRAP... lols.
more papers to go.. tomorrow.. CHEMISTRY and BIOLOGY !! shit!! another two heavy subjects tomorrow..!! hais.. when can this stop?
yea.. today amanda told me that there is this NORTH ZONE DEBATE COMPETITION coming on.. long time never DEBATE already.. i miss DEBATE ... looking foward to IT !! !.. :)
hais.. study. study. study. got to go to STUDY. lols..
Sunday, May 14, 2006
recently, i have realised something ... i have becoming more and more slack. imagine 3 days of free days (vesak day + weekend). i am there slacking. using the computer. AND without touching any book... idiot. haiz. haiz. haiz. can anybody please wake me up from thisdream of mine ? hais. many people give me encouragement in my tag board. but. why am i not helping myself? hais. i must learnt to pick myself up. i must fight the war with all my might. i must win the war. i must get into top 10 of the class. i must get good results. i must surprise my parents with my results. but. the thing is "CAN I DO IT ?" ... maybe ? maybe not.
Friday, May 12, 2006
here to blog again. i have been blogging really frequently these days. hais. monday - thursday goes the last few papers. i am really scared. seriously. i have done really terrible for my geog & social studies exam.. don't want to flunk all. although many people said that sec3 can flunk a little. for me. is CANNOT flunk at all. hais. monday is add maths & literature. add maths mustpractice.if not will flunk. as mdm padma says, " if you practice revision 1 - 5, there is no reason why should you fail add maths.." lols. lols.
by the way, added "don't phunk with my heart" in my blog!! hope my readers will enjoy it !!
Thursday, May 11, 2006
hais.. hais... today is social studies & pure geography... wad a difficult paper... some overall comments..
`geography- didnt' know how to do several questions... they ask me for tropical storm and i gave convectional rain.. idiotz.. i lost 6 ++ marks already. `social studies - average. wrote CRAP for a question on northern ireland... they asked me for IMPACT.. i gave the BlOODY SUNDAY incident... lols:( source based was ok. at least i knew how to ATTEMPT... lols.. overall.. i think i will flunk geography... sure derx lol then social studies... see if teacher lenient norx.. if lenient then may pass.. if not.. hais
*got back my physics paper today - 9/20 ... wad a good fail grade... :(
i am seriously stressed up.. although today has only 2 papers.. already so freaking stress.. wad about next week. wad about the O's ? now i can only sigh ... "Hais.. hais.. hais. hais. hais."
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
hais. tomorrow is the next paper... geography n social studies... :( so many things to study... doesn't it seem so ironic when tomorrow is the exam and i haven't finish revising my topics for tommorrow's exam. lols. i am dead. seriously. gosh. hais. i am such a flunker... today got back a math, chemistry and pure geography ca marks.. hais. chemistry - 11 out of 25 [failed] add maths - 19 out of 30 geography - 15 out of 30.. yes.. although i passed for maths n geog.. i borderlined pass..
hais. i am really scared that i will get such HORRENDOUS results for mid year exam.. ohs. by the way. happy birthday gwend!! hehe.. back to the results, i am really scared.. i really did a bad BAD job for my ca.. can't afford to do badly for mid year...
hais. hais. hais. someone asked me this question today "IS LIFE FAIR?" my answer was... PROBABLY :)
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
saw this quiz on scze we's blog then i decided to do it. seems interesting :) Name 20 people you can think of right now at the top of your head. Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 20 ppl. Ok tag at least 5 ppl.. Ready? Start!
1. kok chen 2. danial 3. chong sian 4. scze we 5. ellis 6. felicia tan 7. shu xian 8. suxin 9. gladys (my cousin!) 10. suzanna 11. isaac 12. eugene sng 13. yiwen 14. jaclyn 15. kent 16. desmond ho 17. yong kian 18. julailah 19. jiaying 20. cressa
Ok, now for the questions:
1.How did you meet 14? `jaclyn - during drama in sec 1...
2.What would you do if you had never met 1? `kok chen - hmm.. probably i won't be so lame.. *joking*
3.What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? `cressa & gladys - my cousin don't even know cressa.. btw. they are normal gals...
4. Did u ever like 19? `jiaying - ahem...
5.Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? `felicia tan & yong kian - lols... i don't think so..
6.Describe 3. `chong sian - good pal.. :) best friends forever!!
7.Do you think 8 is attractive? `suxin - attractive? maybe... attracts bald man!! hehe.. just joking
8.Tell me something about 7. `shu xian - errz.. don't know lehs?
9.Do you know any of 12's family? `eugene sng - his bro? called... erwin?
10.What's 8's favourite? `suxin - probably DRAMA & DEBATE 11.What would you do if 18 just confessed he/she likes you? `julailah - say "thank you" lol.. hehe.. must be polite!! :)
12.What language does 15 speak? `kent - chinese & english... lols;
13.Who is 9 going out with? `gladys - going out? when? ....
14.How old is 16 now? `desmond ho - eh... shld be fourteen bahx.
15.When's the last time u talked to 13? `yiwen - last friday..
16.What is 2's favourite band/singer? `danial - eh, i think is himself.. because he is a vocalist.. :)
17.Would you ever date 4? `scze we - er.. don't think so bahx.. friends only...
18.Would you ever date 7? `shu xian - er.. don't think so bahx.. friends only...
19.Is 15 single? `kent - er... yarx. but he dating someone!!
20.What is 10's last name? `suzanna - teo wei shan suzanna
21.Would u ever be in a serious relationship with 11? `isaac - yew.. i am not a GAY ... :X
22.What school does 3 go to? `chong sian - bowen secondary school lol.
23.Where does 6 live? `felicia tan - think is balestier...
24.What's your favourite thing about 5? `ellis - she arhs? lols.. no favourite thing.. she always very sleepy :)
25.Have u seen number 1 naked? `kok chen - no lar..
Now to tag 5 people: (i) kok chen (ii) danial (iii) chong sian (iv) scze we (iiv) ellis
taken from - scze we's blog ; unexpected-promise.blogspot.com - jie cai's blog ; darkness-light.blogspot.com
Monday, May 08, 2006
`this will be a short post... "exams" - the word that i detest now.. this thursday goes the next paper `geography paper 2 n social studies ... i hate it... so many things to study... hais ... gotta go and fight the war already...gotta go and study ...
Sunday, May 07, 2006
i haven even started revision... shit!! this thursday is the first "studyable" subject - geography and social studies. haven even touch that freaking books. i am gonna flunk. i am gonna fail... hais. although in my previous post, i said i cannot be stressed but ... what can i do? stress virus is coming towards me. not leaving me any space to breathe. i can only do my best to beat down stress. perhaps. i donno? i realised a "disease" that is rather popular to teenagers thesedays. this is the description...
disease name : examFEVER (commonly known as examSTRESS) target group : teenagers aged 13 and above^^ (sec students) symptoms : unable to concentrate studying, feeling moody and stressful, feeling unable to revise. headache. cure? : talk to your friends and relax in sports. when will it end? : probably after the exams. but don't let it get u down...
Friday, May 05, 2006
the mid year fever has arrived today. at approximately 8.00 am - when i was having my english paper. seriously i am BREAKING DOWN soon. i am so freaking STRESSED UP. i hate it. i seriously hate it. i edited this post on +[o6.o5.2oo6]+. i realised something. i realised that life is a gift to us by god. how can we be so careless with it? so. i should appreciate life. :) the motto goes. "live life to the FULLEST." - i must be happy. i must relax. i must not be STRESS!!
Monday, May 01, 2006
firstly, happy labour day... a brand new start in the month.
i donno wad's life going to be like for the next 4 weeks. die. mid year exam is coming. this friday 5th may. i hate exams. now listening to "wu ding" by jay chou and landy. it is so saddening to see people excelling in exams. and me. getting poor results day by day. hais. i have no choice but to force myself in the stupid freakig "exam mood". study, study and to STUDY. shit siah. i am now starting on core geog because this is the first subject that requires studying one. next is social studies. geography got 5 chapters siah.weather & climate, climatic disasters(floods, cyclones, tropical storms), climatic zones combined with natural vegetation and plate tectonics. quite alot of indepth studies. hais. hais. hais. why is life so stressful in modern centuries? people used to compare now and last time say last time don't have air con, laptop, computer... (the list goes on) but last time have algebra mehs? have trigonometry, cos sin tan mehs? hais. gotta go back to my BOOKS and study them. hais. i hate life.
